I even remember my father was doing same thing when I was young - he was suffering from nightmares too, but I thought it maybe was from chronic alcoholism. I used to scream out of my dreams a lot in my life. Eventually, I woke up from me screaming irl. Couldn’t even die! I just saw as whole location was collapsing into a dot, it was very scary. When I hit the ground, I fell through the texture of it and kept endlessly falling under the “map”. It was a long fall from the height of 10 storey building or smth. So I just let go my hands and fell down while saying “goodbye” to her with some sort of relief feeling. I told her that lately it got hard for me to move because of weakness and she was like “no it’s not”. Location was all white, abstract and videogamey, something like school from Monogatari. I tried to show her that my muscles can barely do job and I hung down from some type of construction. In this dream I was complaining to her about how weak I feel physically and she said that it’s not truth. This was a dream about one of my mom’s defense mechanisms - denial. I cannot bear listening music in my headphones while laying down because pain bothers me. I want to grab my phone immediately and scroll some feed just to distract myself from it. I lay down in bed and feel horrific anxiety. When I go to sleep it feels like I'm wearing a pyjama made of anxiety that I can't take off. Today I woke up from the nightmare and I'm already know how I will feel when I have to go to bed again tonight. i feel so exhausted for the whole day if i see a nightmare. Wrote this 2 weeks ago and i still have them every other night.
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